Inside the fitness journey

A lot of my journey you can't see. It's been on the inside. It's the size of my smile while pinching my stomach. It's not having a legit meltdown while trying to find something in my closet that fits. It's feeling sexy in my own skin. It's being able to share pics like these and not cringe at the thought of hitting post. 
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Ever hear the saying "I wish I were as thin as when I thought I was fat?"
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I've weighed 10 lbs more and felt physically horrible, but had been completely unaware of my weight until I saw myself in pics and hated them. I've also weighed 10 lbs less, thought my body defined who I was as a person, and was still super self conscious. 

It's taken a lot of work to shut down my inner mean girl who wants to tell me I'm fat and need abs. And she's def not gone completely. She tries to creep back in from time to time, especially after eating things I know make me feel like shit. Especially in the winters when my SAD kicks in. Especially when I slip up on reading my personal development. (And don't get me wrong, there's nothing wrong with abs, I'd love to get them back, I just know there's more to health and life than a six pack.✌?)

Right now is where I'm the happiest and most CONFIDENT.... and it has NOTHING to do with that # on the scale. Feeling good in my own skin. Ignoring the bull shit the media says. Living my life. Taking risks and going on adventures. Connecting with other women who struggle with the same things I do. Not hiding behind baggy clothes. Not telling myself "I'll be happy when..." 

So here I am, real body, real skin, real "flab", no photoshop, hoping to inspire someone to step into their own version of happiness. 
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It's time to stop saying "I'll be happy when..." When is right now!! 

You can read more of my fitness store HERE.

And be sure to check out my list of the best personal development to help squash your inner mean girl HERE!
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Xoxo